First Post

Hi. This is my first post. Well, not the first one ever for me. Just the first one on this blog.

I'm kind of lost in my life. 16 and don't really know what I'm going to do. What I'm doing. With my life. Which is slightly scary.

There's the "Let's Talk" campaign from Bell, that talks about mental illness. I think I may have hum.. something like that. Or I'm hypochondriac and I have a terrible case of dysmorphia. Which sums up pretty well how my life is going right now.

It's funny because everyone around thinks I'm ok. Or rather, that there's something wrong, but I'll get over it. Positive attitude and all. The things is, I have a pessimistic nature. I'm self-pitying. I indulge in telling myself I suck. And the more I dig myself a hole, the better I feel. Michael Kimber said that positive attitude is a load of crap and rational attitude is better. Also mentioned something in the lines of "Telling someone [with mental illness, I'm guessing] to have a positive attitude is like telling a guy in a wheelchair to run". I'm inclined to agree. (Don't quote me on what he said though, I may be totally wrong.

I kind of need to get my shit together.

Which is easier said than done.

Welcome to my world.